Tuesday, March 29, 2011


Today I got a fancy newfangled scale that keeps track of my weight from one weigh in to another and then promptly tells me if I have gone up or down with a big black arrow and a number that indicates by how much. Today it said "148.8" and I think I'm going to throw myself off a cliff. I feel gross and Ben has taken to calling me "Beefcake", all in love of course. lol

So today was DAY ONE all over again. I may need to start over and over but I think this time its going to stick. So....on day one I did 45 minutes on the treadmill which amounted to a measly 1.72 miles then I took a 10 minute break and took my first pilates class. This thing, pilates, must have been created by the devil. it was worse than that P90x ab ripper. Foolishly I thought pilates was like yoga but with weights or an exercise ball or something...oh no, this shit is COMPLETELY core work. I'm not going to be able to tie my shoes tomorrow.

I also took a brisk walk twice around the block with the kids (pushing Savvy, Aidan rode is bike and Vi was sleeping in my mom's view.) I ate my dinner, caved and had one 160 calorie bag of cheetos and then a banana and a big glass of water.

Tomorrow is Yoga in the afternoon and HOPEFULLY ZUMBA at night. I think I am going to try to get my bike from June tomorrow from the studio so I can ride my bike to and from the Bayside Y. Hmmmmmmmm


Till I whine at the world tomorrow. G'nite.

Thursday, March 24, 2011


So...I have successfully avoided not only the gym but the scale in the last two weeks. I do know that at my doctors appointment last week the scale there said 150lbs and I haven't stopped thinking about it since. Mind you, I said "think".....not a whole lot of doing. I ordered a book today that Dr. Phil was raving about. It is no secret that I am in love with Dr. Phil, this philosophy, his psychological views and this therapy treatments are all along my same line of thinking and psych-study. It is called The 17 day diet. Basically you follow the guidelines like with any other diet but it switches up every 17 days, and you have to do 17 minutes of exercise each day as well. I can handle that. I want to talk to Meg about it because apparently it is based on "metabolic confusion" or "calorie switching". I don't know much in this area but from what I could understand it sounds scientifically correct so I'm willing to give it a shot. Plus with my Borders Rewards membership I was able to get the damn book 65% off and with free shipping. So for $11.57 I'm going to give it a go.

Right now I can't even look at myself in a mirror. I feel disgusting and insanely unattractive. I just want to feel like ME again....